my coLorfuL Life.... coLors bLack and white!

my life has changed. it was turned upside down. that happened when i met Jesus. i know Him of course! even atheist knows who Jesus is. but the real question is how much do you know Him? 

Jesus and i had been acquainted at Calvary Chapel in Dumaguete. after that meeting, it was a roller coaster ride. to make the story short, we didn't get close as i was expecting us to be... that was before then. we don't talk to each other always and that made our friendship quite falling. i was not able to do my part as a good friend. i enjoyed my life so much with my family and friends that i didn't have time to think about Him. why would i? do i need something really bad? of course i do thank God for all the good things that i received then. i am a Christian. i am performing my duty to God - i go to church on sunday, i am good to my friends and family, i do my duty in the community (so that they don't have anything to say against me).

that's how my relationship with Jesus Christ before. so i questioned Him when certain circumstances come my way. why oh Lord are you giving me these obstacles in life? is my faith for You Lord not enough? if only i had known that the answer was NO, my life would have been more worth living. no regrets thou. i am glad that i still have the chance to know more about God without having to pass dreadful experiences. i have known lots of friends who became Christians after they had their turning point experiences. i am so blessed to search for God because of my spiritual hunger for Him.

now, here comes the challenging part. it's easier to realize that you need something in life, something to fill up the missing part -- and that's the Lord Jesus Christ - who died on the cross so that we sinners would be saved. after accepting Jesus Christ and being born again, one has to live a life in accordance to God's will. that's the hardest part. Christians are inclined to temptations because the devil wants to take us away from our Almighty Father. but then, God gave us the full armor to face every battle, plus God Himself being in our midst through the Holy Spirit. 

if i could have only known God long time ago the way i know Him now, i could have been better as a person.. i could have been better in my relationships.... but it would have been different without those stumbling blocks. it's all about God's timing. perfectly done unto me. 

thank you Lord God for the wonderful opportunity to know you more.... and more... and more.... living everyday with you is like a fresh air into my soul. and i would want to live that way... help me oh Lord to touch the lives of others that they may open their hearts to you. i love you sooo much Jesus Christ.... and i look forward of hugging You tight one day.....

just happy!

happiness. that's what i feel right now. in the past few days, i am struggling with the effect of the raging hormones of being pregnant. no matter how much i tried to be positive, to have a mindset of good things, still i can't. though i know its a typical emotion during pregnancy, i really thought i can get over it and not be affected with it at all. yeah right! nobody is excuse. =)

support system. it is indeed very important. most of the people close to me, whom i can open up are not here around me. they may be there with the help of technology, but touch matters as well. i am just fortunate to have somebody who cares and loves me a lot. my husband. i know there were times when he feels so confused with my extreme attitudes. he may have tried to argue and question me, yet he still choose to be quiet and understand me despite his confusions. and i thank him for that. thank you very much for loving me, understanding me, accepting me and reassuring me always. all those small things matter a lot to me.

im just very thankful and happy!.......... and sleepy already! =)

Losing....Giving....Receiving....

Losing someone is somehow easy to accept. But knowing that you can never see that someone for good is really hard to do. My grandmother just past away last October 21, 2009 at around 5:00 in the afternoon. She's an old maid but she considered my mother as her own daughter. She's living a quite simple life. She has a small store and a younger brother, who is also an old bachelor who helps her. Financially they are able to sustain their everyday needs, but as they get older (Lola is 84 years old and her brother is in his 70s) things are getting difficult for them, such as buying their stocks from the market. They had no household helpers so they do everything on their own. Life had been harsh to them in their later years. So other members of the family has to extend their financial contributions every month to help them sustain their basic needs. Time came when the financial support extended to them were not enough to help them with all their needs, especially their medical needs. Recently, she took her last breath lying in bed, in pain. I don't want to give more description of her situation because it pains me a lot.

Giving is better than receiving. It is as they say, helping yourself getting rid of self-centeredness. Yet, there would always be those times when what's left for you is enough for you only. People who were used to seeing you giving more, expects more of what you can give. They are not even the recipient of what you can give. Bad thing is, these people say a lot of rude words towards you. Not only hurting but degrading. As an individual, trying to become a better person, I choose to let these words pass. Taking note that you cannot please everyone. *deep sigh*

Receiving support from people who cares for you - family and friends, indeed provides peace of mind, calmness and reassurance that no matter how worst things maybe, they would always be there to stand by you. These people gives me additional strength to fight through everyday life.

Life is not easy. But life on earth is not the end of it all. All things are temporary. God has prepared a place for all of us in heaven. A place where we should look forward to. Losing, giving, receiving are just some of the experiences we need to go through to appreciate life in any way.

i miss bLogging....

it's been a while and i miss writing.... i miss my friends who are blogging....

i don't know what to write but i just feel the need to write something.... maybe about how happy i am to feel the small person inside me starting to stretch out his/her muscles....

the feeling is so amazing.... it's beyond words to describe. at first it tickles. then it will make you laugh. and i always wonder what is this small person doing inside.... they say that the joy a mother feels is overwhelming the moment they see their baby.... i say, that joy overwhelms me now feeling that there's another life inside me....

pregnancy makes me appreciate the unconditional love a mother could give.... you go through a lot of discomforts and other effects of raging hormones but despite it all, it will make you smile knowing that the sacrifices you're going through are all worth it!

me and the baba of my baby are always looking forward for the next ultrasound of our little one who loves to entertain us with his/her moves! ;-) we were just so excited to see you in person next year!

hasta la vista baby! hehehe

it's our 1st monthsary! =)

for the first entry.... let me make this short....

im sitting beside my husband right now, it's 11:40 pm here at corporate inn, iligan city.... i couldn't think of anything to write when i have everything on my side....

so... im inviting my husband to write something instead.... =) *give way*


badik: bakit man?

memei: ganyan ba yan? obey first before you complain ah!

badik: ganyan yan..hehehehe

memei: sige na day.. so that we can go upstairs.... hehehe

badik: *buntot hininga*

memei: hindi man yan buntot hininga day ui..

badik&memei: buntong hininga..hehehehehe

badik: tsik tsik tsik tsik tsik tsik

memei: day bah.. write na bah..

badik: *sigh* hehehehe akong aSAWA sige pamugos jud..
maaU lng gani kai nangLaba jud pagmata ganina.. unsaOn nLng kng ako ni una ug mata..hehehehehe diLi jd maLabhan ang mga kinakusgan nga sanina sa akong aSAWA..hehehehehehe humot man au muLaba akng aSAWA..hehehehe excited pud ni cya mamiya nko ugma.. ambot treng..

ambot kung excited mubaLik..hehehehehe maikog bya ko ani sa akong asawa kai daghan au pLano dad.on inig baLik..hehehehe dba doy?hahahahaha MTM..hehehehehe maau unta kung musugot na cya mag puppy nami or kung diLi, dad.on nya c mudbaLL, anad naman cya bitbit kai mudbaLL..hehehehe dLi na cya mka hiLak mag daLa, mas mka hiLak pa cya sa Labada..hahahahahaha

thanx doOwie.. i love you.. tsup!


hehehe.. finally.... at least he has written something.. hehehe. last night, we had an arguement over the laundry.. not the usual, as to whos doing it, its the "doing it" that wakes the dragon inside him.... hahaha

we're planning to get a puppy (inspiration from "marley and me") hehehe but we're still saving. hopefully we could get one. hehehe

this is all for our first monthsary. *daghan nag lamok*

i love you day! hmuuuuaah*