happiness. that's what i feel right now. in the past few days, i am struggling with the effect of the raging hormones of being pregnant. no matter how much i tried to be positive, to have a mindset of good things, still i can't. though i know its a typical emotion during pregnancy, i really thought i can get over it and not be affected with it at all. yeah right! nobody is excuse. =)
support system. it is indeed very important. most of the people close to me, whom i can open up are not here around me. they may be there with the help of technology, but touch matters as well. i am just fortunate to have somebody who cares and loves me a lot. my husband. i know there were times when he feels so confused with my extreme attitudes. he may have tried to argue and question me, yet he still choose to be quiet and understand me despite his confusions. and i thank him for that. thank you very much for loving me, understanding me, accepting me and reassuring me always. all those small things matter a lot to me.
im just very thankful and happy!.......... and sleepy already! =)
Losing someone is somehow easy to accept. But knowing that you can never see that someone for good is really hard to do. My grandmother just past away last October 21, 2009 at around 5:00 in the afternoon. She's an old maid but she considered my mother as her own daughter. She's living a quite simple life. She has a small store and a younger brother, who is also an old bachelor who helps her. Financially they are able to sustain their everyday needs, but as they get older (Lola is 84 years old and her brother is in his 70s) things are getting difficult for them, such as buying their stocks from the market. They had no household helpers so they do everything on their own. Life had been harsh to them in their later years. So other members of the family has to extend their financial contributions every month to help them sustain their basic needs. Time came when the financial support extended to them were not enough to help them with all their needs, especially their medical needs. Recently, she took her last breath lying in bed, in pain. I don't want to give more description of her situation because it pains me a lot.
Giving is better than receiving. It is as they say, helping yourself getting rid of self-centeredness. Yet, there would always be those times when what's left for you is enough for you only. People who were used to seeing you giving more, expects more of what you can give. They are not even the recipient of what you can give. Bad thing is, these people say a lot of rude words towards you. Not only hurting but degrading. As an individual, trying to become a better person, I choose to let these words pass. Taking note that you cannot please everyone. *deep sigh*
Receiving support from people who cares for you - family and friends, indeed provides peace of mind, calmness and reassurance that no matter how worst things maybe, they would always be there to stand by you. These people gives me additional strength to fight through everyday life.
Life is not easy. But life on earth is not the end of it all. All things are temporary. God has prepared a place for all of us in heaven. A place where we should look forward to. Losing, giving, receiving are just some of the experiences we need to go through to appreciate life in any way.
it's been a while and i miss writing.... i miss my friends who are blogging....
i don't know what to write but i just feel the need to write something.... maybe about how happy i am to feel the small person inside me starting to stretch out his/her muscles....
the feeling is so amazing.... it's beyond words to describe. at first it tickles. then it will make you laugh. and i always wonder what is this small person doing inside.... they say that the joy a mother feels is overwhelming the moment they see their baby.... i say, that joy overwhelms me now feeling that there's another life inside me....
pregnancy makes me appreciate the unconditional love a mother could give.... you go through a lot of discomforts and other effects of raging hormones but despite it all, it will make you smile knowing that the sacrifices you're going through are all worth it!
me and the baba of my baby are always looking forward for the next ultrasound of our little one who loves to entertain us with his/her moves! ;-) we were just so excited to see you in person next year!
hasta la vista baby! hehehe
for the first entry.... let me make this short....
im sitting beside my husband right now, it's 11:40 pm here at corporate inn, iligan city.... i couldn't think of anything to write when i have everything on my side....
so... im inviting my husband to write something instead.... =) *give way*
badik: bakit man?
memei: ganyan ba yan? obey first before you complain ah!
badik: ganyan yan..hehehehe
memei: sige na day.. so that we can go upstairs.... hehehe
badik: *buntot hininga*
memei: hindi man yan buntot hininga day ui..
badik&memei: buntong hininga..hehehehehe
badik: tsik tsik tsik tsik tsik tsik
memei: day bah.. write na bah..
badik: *sigh* hehehehe akong aSAWA sige pamugos jud..
maaU lng gani kai nangLaba jud pagmata ganina.. unsaOn nLng kng ako ni una ug mata..hehehehehe diLi jd maLabhan ang mga kinakusgan nga sanina sa akong aSAWA..hehehehehehe humot man au muLaba akng aSAWA..hehehehe excited pud ni cya mamiya nko ugma.. ambot treng..
ambot kung excited mubaLik..hehehehehe maikog bya ko ani sa akong asawa kai daghan au pLano dad.on inig baLik..hehehehe dba doy?hahahahaha MTM..hehehehehe maau unta kung musugot na cya mag puppy nami or kung diLi, dad.on nya c mudbaLL, anad naman cya bitbit kai mudbaLL..hehehehe dLi na cya mka hiLak mag daLa, mas mka hiLak pa cya sa Labada..hahahahahaha
thanx doOwie.. i love you.. tsup!
hehehe.. finally.... at least he has written something.. hehehe. last night, we had an arguement over the laundry.. not the usual, as to whos doing it, its the "doing it" that wakes the dragon inside him.... hahaha
we're planning to get a puppy (inspiration from "marley and me") hehehe but we're still saving. hopefully we could get one. hehehe
this is all for our first monthsary. *daghan nag lamok*
i love you day! hmuuuuaah*
